It's still not getting easier. I still miss him. I still think of him.
It's HK holiday today, so I have no work. Slept most of the day. Watched some shows on TV. Chatted with friends. And yeah, still kinda stalked him. Does he even think about me?
It sucks that you no longer matter to the person you have loved and cared so much. It sucks when you realize how dispensable you are. It sucks when you no longer have someone to say good morning or goodnight to. When he has been part of your daily habit, and now you're missing a chunk of your life.
I was looking at my Instagram feed awhile ago. I can easily pinpoint which posts I am not okay because of him. It's pretty a lot, I'll say. I remember when I was feeling disappointed or when I was heartbroken because I learned that there's someone else. I remember not talking to him on those days. And then there was me reaching out to him after few days and then we'll be okay again. It was a tiring cycle.
How can I long for someone who has caused me pain? Who has easily taken me for granted and has not valued me? Why can I not hate him? What is wrong with me?
Sorry to the person who is reading this if I'm not making sense at all. Maybe you have something that can help me?
It's HK holiday today, so I have no work. Slept most of the day. Watched some shows on TV. Chatted with friends. And yeah, still kinda stalked him. Does he even think about me?
It sucks that you no longer matter to the person you have loved and cared so much. It sucks when you realize how dispensable you are. It sucks when you no longer have someone to say good morning or goodnight to. When he has been part of your daily habit, and now you're missing a chunk of your life.
I was looking at my Instagram feed awhile ago. I can easily pinpoint which posts I am not okay because of him. It's pretty a lot, I'll say. I remember when I was feeling disappointed or when I was heartbroken because I learned that there's someone else. I remember not talking to him on those days. And then there was me reaching out to him after few days and then we'll be okay again. It was a tiring cycle.
How can I long for someone who has caused me pain? Who has easily taken me for granted and has not valued me? Why can I not hate him? What is wrong with me?
Sorry to the person who is reading this if I'm not making sense at all. Maybe you have something that can help me?
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